Thought I’d make the most a free few minutes to check in with you all. A bit of an update on real life for me right now….
Well, to be honest, I’m struggling. With my mental health, physical health, stress, anxiety…. The list goes on!
Trying my hardest to keep my head above water, kicking my legs like mad, but running out of energy now. It’s all taking it’s toll on me and I’m exhausted.
Having issues with neighbours, financial pressures, emotions running wild due to recent events with so called family, and my physical health concerns constantly on my mind, as my ultrasound scan appointment rapidly approaches. All in all, it’s chaos, both inside my head and outside in my life. Some days I honestly don’t want to get out of bed, instead I’d rather pull the covers over my head and block the world out for the day. Just so I don’t have to deal with it all. I’m physically and emotionally drained.
There is some positive things happening in the background too, which I won’t go into now, but knowing they’re happening is helping me to keep fighting and battling my demons every day.
Parenting is intensely hard, due to all of the above, along with the tantrums and meltdowns that come as standard with a 2 year old. I love my daughter more than life, but she truly is hard work sometimes! It feels like constant battles over doing her hair, getting her dressed, what she wants to eat or drink, trying to change her nappy, and don’t even get me started on bedtime…. 🙈 I’m just so incredibly grateful that I’m not on my own with it all; my husband is my rock and is super helpful and supportive, with everything. I would be so utterly lost without him. He lifts me up when I fall down, puts me back together every time I break, and supports me through literally everything. He’s the most kind, caring and considerate human I know, and I’m so so lucky to call him mine.
I’m hopeful that things are beginning to turn a corner though, despite all the chaos and drama going on. I’ll be partly glad to see the back to 2018 though, as it’s been a pretty rough ride thus far! With only 4 months left of this year, the end is in sight and fingers crossed 2019 is our year to thrive and live happily ever after!
Anyway, I’ll stop rambling now, as time to get ready to once again go out and get stuff done! No rest for the wicked eh?!
Much love to you all and thanks for reading! ❤️